with the birds I’ll share this lonely view

I recently started a new job that has me standing for much of my eight hour shift, which I must say leaves my legs pretty sore. It’s been over two years now since I injured both of my knees, resulting in seven months of surgeries, crutches, knee braces, and rehab. I have yet to fully regain all of the muscles in my upper legs that I lost after the surgeries, due in large part to my long-standing aversion to doing squats. The scars have faded quite nicely and are barely visible unless upon close inspection. The only significant lasting impedance from the ordeal is my inability to fully extend my left leg. This is a result of a build up of scar tissue that prohibits full range of motion and gives my knee a slightly unusual shape.

There are a few suggestions out there as to how to remedy the pain and aggravation of scar tissue buildup. A common treatment that is less drastic than surgery is massage therapy. Now we’re not just talking about a little rubbing. The process consists of purposefully applying a great amount of pressure and movement to the affected area so that the scar tissue literally breaks apart. If that weren’t bad enough, this technique is often most effective when done to yourself because you can feel exactly where to apply the pressure. Honestly though, who enjoys inflicting that much pain on themselves? I’ve been trying to work on my scar tissue for a couple of weeks now, and it has been rough going. Not surprisingly, my knees are not too fond of being disturbed and often let me know of their displeasure the next day.

It was on one of these particular morning afters when I got out of bed and hobbled to the bathroom feeling much much older than my twenty-four years, that I realized how my situation is analogous to life. Often times we have wounds that appear to have healed and are no longer a problem, but further examination reveals lasting effects deep below the surface. This emotional scar tissue, if you will, is not outwardly visible and generally does not affect daily functioning; therefore, many chose to simply ignore the slight annoyance it causes. However, to prevent further complications down the road, it may be necessary to revisit the injury and apply pressure. It is not easy and can be quite painful, but ultimately it is a critical step in regaining full range of motion. In the end, the choice comes down to either momentary discomfort or a permanent limp.